Hangin' around

Went in for the position check on Eli this morning. While I was in the ladies room, Jed was chatting it up with our MA and the office clerk. I love the staff that helps take care of us. As for Eli,he is bottom down legs tucked, with his head up.

So the game plan is to going in for checks, Thursday morning, Friday morning and Monday. If he is in position at any of the appointments, they will immediately admit me and start the induction. If not, the appointment Monday will end with one more attempt to turn him manually and if nothing comes of it, then I will be having a c-section. I'm not sure if that will be on Monday or Tuesday. Either way it will put my sister and I with very close delivery dates. She is scheduled for a c-section on Tuesday. The end seems far away but I am grateful that my Dr. isn't anxious to rush me in for a c-section unless absolutely necessary.

She commented on my blog yesterday about us being in the hospital together and getting to take the babies for strolls in the hall with their bassinets,and noshing on Lorna Doones together. If we both have a c-section it would be nice to have such a good friend there, since both of our husbands will work the days we are in the hospital so they can have more time to help at home when we get to that point. It made me smile to think of the two of us being there together.

I think after yesterday's experience I was in too much shock to really be able to judge my feelings. I put on a brave face as we talked with people but as the day wore on I was very discouraged, and cried a little once the girls were in bed and I was doing dishes. It finally felt ok to fall apart. I felt better afterward. I also slept better last night, which was much needed.

On the way home from the appointment, Jed and I were both very quiet. I think we are both just exhausted from re-packing bags and making sure we have everything the girls need to stay with family that is watching them. Emotionally too it has taken it's toll. We get anticipating and hopeful and then feel let down when we have to wait another day again and anticipate the unknown. Jed has been a great support to me, and I am so thankful that his boss is so understanding and lets Jed come in late so he can attend these appointments with me, and allow him to play his schedule by whatever is happening with our baby.